Guilty Thoughts

Trent and I are finally settling in to our new lives out here in Colorado, and it feels great. We are getting to be on the same page again as far as finances, and are making new friends (slowly, but still). Yesterday, I received an e-mail from a former roommate who is looking in to graduate schools out here. She is also looking a lot of other places, but for some reason the fact that she is thinking about coming here is upsetting to me.

It frustrates me because on the one hand it would be awesome for her to be here, but on the other, I don't want her out here. That is so selfish; this is my state type of thing, but I can't help feeling that way. I feel like I'm being awful, but am I a bitch to want to get on with my life without certain people in it. I think not, but yet I feel guilty. Most likely this "person" will not come out here, but it is sort of freaking me out. It's not that I even want her out of my life, but more so that I want her as a peripheral friend. God, I am so mean. I love this person, but it's time for me to break away from certain things in my life...and that might be one of them.