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Happy Thanksgiving! Last year I missed my connecting flight home for Thanksgiving due to the weather, and missed dinner. Very sad, so this year I am going to live it up, and eat it down! I hope you all have something(s) to be thankful for. My top five things I'm thankful for include:

1) My familia
2) Trent, and him being home for the holidays this year
3) My friends (near and far)
4) Maynard (our new puppy)
5) Colorado (I am so lucky to live in such a beautiful place)

Have a very Happy and filling Thanksgiving everyone!

Guilty Thoughts

Trent and I are finally settling in to our new lives out here in Colorado, and it feels great. We are getting to be on the same page again as far as finances, and are making new friends (slowly, but still). Yesterday, I received an e-mail from a former roommate who is looking in to graduate schools out here. She is also looking a lot of other places, but for some reason the fact that she is thinking about coming here is upsetting to me.

It frustrates me because on the one hand it would be awesome for her to be here, but on the other, I don't want her out here. That is so selfish; this is my state type of thing, but I can't help feeling that way. I feel like I'm being awful, but am I a bitch to want to get on with my life without certain people in it. I think not, but yet I feel guilty. Most likely this "person" will not come out here, but it is sort of freaking me out. It's not that I even want her out of my life, but more so that I want her as a peripheral friend. God, I am so mean. I love this person, but it's time for me to break away from certain things in my life...and that might be one of them.

Ho-hum

It's Monday, and I am SO tired. I don't think I got enough rest this weekend, but also my body just feels worn down. I kind of think I'm getting sick or something. That would suck. Maybe I just need to go home, take some NyQuil, and go to bed. Only 3 1/2 more hours of work, and I can think about doing that. Hmmmm...I'm ready for Tuesday.

Focus

For once in my life I feel like I know what I want, what I should be doing, and how to get there. It is crazy how things come in to focus; even things that have been there all along, hiding, waiting to be realized. What am I talking about...TEACHING!

So, I have this degree in Graphic Design, and for the last year and a half I have felt guilty for not utilizing what I went to school to do. That's not even entirely true. The real guilt crept in when I realized I spent all that money on something that I have no desire to pursue. While I'm so thankful I decided to go down that path (mainly because it was fun, and I made GREAT friends), I have felt until now that I was somehow failing. I mean, I have been stuck in an office doing something I am overqualified at doing for far too long. Recently I have found myself staring down a new path, one that actually excites me, and I suddenly have purpose again. I'm being a little bit dramatic...I had purpose, a path, but I realize now that my heart just wasn't in it.

Now I have to start over a bit, but it will be well worth it.

Visitor

We, well more so Trent, had a surprise visitor yesterday. His best friend Isaiah came down for the evening/night to see him. I don't think they had seen each other since Trent was released from the Army. It is so fun to see them together, and I know it meant a lot to Trent.

We are also starting to feel a little bit more at home here. We now have a couple of friends, and are starting to go out more. Our neighbors had us over for steaks last night, and we also went out with them and some of their friends on Friday night. It just feels good to get to know people again. Hopefully the friendships will just keep on coming.

Although, I do REALLY miss some of my friends from MN, Chicago, and Rapid. I miss my Lexi, and Anna, and Autumn, and Patti, and Laura, and Emily,and ... I guess that's just how life is.

Maynard

It's been a while since I last posted. The only thing that's really changed since then is a new addition to our family. Trent and I adopted a dog from a local Humane Society. His name is Maynard, and he is a Sharpei mix. Mix most likely meaning Pit Bull and Lab. He is such a sweetheart, and we are both addicted to him. Our poor little guy was "fixed" yesterday, and has been a little out of it. Trent was saying how empty and lonely our house was yesterday with him being gone. He's only been with us a short time, but we couldn't imagine life without him. I guess that's what love is.