Sadness

My stepsister Susie committed suicide yesterday morning. Why? Why? Why? She's been troubled her whole life, but she left so much behind and I'm struggling with why? Carroll, Randy, Tasha, and Dustin must be in so much pain, and my heart is breaking for them. I wasn't all that close with Susie, mostly because of our large age and geographical distance, but it's saddening and maddening all the same. My heart is breaking for my stepdad, Carroll, and Susie's son Dustin. This would be the worst way to say goodbye to a child, mother, friend. I just don't know what else to say...